I have to admit that I did not know that today was National Miscarriage Awareness day until this evening. It is kind of interesting to me because I rarely get time in the car by myself. Today on the way to pick up Ashlynn from school I really wanted to listen to Avril Lavine's song Slipped Away. It is one of those songs that just explains how I felt when I lost my baby. I am coming up to the one year anniversary of our loss and I tell you I feel like it happened yesterday.
I don't want to focus on my loss though. I pray that no woman ever goes through it, but I know it is a very real part of life. So I pray, that those women that do experience the loss of a baby through miscarriage, can find the support that they need to carry them through. I can say it was a life changing experience. I know I will never be the same person I was a year ago.
I want to take this day to thank all of the people that did not give up on me even though I had completely given up on myself. I pushed God away and I pushed away everyone I knew and loved. Most people let me push and lefted me alone, but there were several friends that never gave up on me no matter how hard I pushed. They are the reason I am changed for the better. They saved me in a way that I don't think I could ever re-pay. I truly believe God sent me my own personal angel in human form. So today I want to not only take a moment to think about and pray for all of the women and that have experienced this kind of loss, but I want to take a moment to offer up a pray of thanks. Thank you God for sending your love to us in ways we never expected. Thank you God for never giving up on us even when we turn our back on you. Thank you God for the friends you send us. Thank you friends for allowing God to use you to help others. Thank you.
I have to admit that I am writing this blog post with absolutely nothing to say. I am so not good with this whole blog thing. I love having it and love being able to just say what I need to say when I need to say it. Most of the time I use it for myself more than for others; kind of like a personal journal. However, I always find myself saying I just don't have time to blog and so I go weeks and weeks without a post. Well now that I am on bed rest and have time to do one daily I don't have a thing to say. Nothing exciting happens when you stay home in bed all day.
I did have a good day with Ashlynn today. My mom has been coming to get her everyday because a four year old really doesn't understand why mommy is laying in bed and not playing fun stuff with her. Today though Ashlynn stayed home with me. She has had the flu this weekend and I just wanted to keep her here. She put on a little puppet show for me so I am including a picture of her and her sock puppet. It is days like today that help you remember it really is the simple moments in life that make your heart full!
Two Sundays ago my Sunday School class decided to challenge each other to find ways that we could demonstrate God's love to others in random acts. Ok, I'll be honest in case anyone from Sunday school is reading this...I decided to make everyone challenge each other. I was nice about it and gave it as a mere suggestion, but I am pretty sure everyone in my Sunday school class thinks I am a crazy girl that can't sit quietly for more than five minutes. Oh well I love them any ways and they at least put up with me!
I really hesitate to put this on here because I am not the type of person that wants or needs recognition for things. I also have found it to be a really neat feeling to have done them without any one else knowing about them. However, I decided that I would share with you the few random things that I have done in hopes that it might inspire someone else to do something to demonstrate God's love.
First, last week I put something in another teachers box just to make her smile. I am not going to go into a lot of details about this one because I really don't want anyone at school to figure out what and who. I will tell you that I made a point to pick someone that I rarely talk to and really honestly don't know that well. I do know enough about her to know that she probably really benifited from a little unexpected "happy".
Next, Marshal and I were out of town this past weekend. When we went out to eat we picked another couple and asked their waitress to bring us their ticket and give them a note that we wrote instead. The note said..."We hope you have a great day. We hope you will accept our kindness and share it with someone else in some small way". After the couple had left the waitress came over and told us how truly excited they were about our gesture and how they said they were definitly going to "pass it on". What I thought was so cool about it was how many people it affected. I expected it to affect the people we choose, but I didn't expect their waitress to be so excited about it. I could hear her telling the other restraunt staff about it and they all just thought it was so neat. Hopefully they will all decide on a small way they can make someones day!
I have two more things that will have to wait unitl my bed rest is over to do.....so I will let you know how those go later. I am also always looking for new ideas. If you decide to do something to share God's love with others let me know. I would love to hear your ideas!