Thursday, December 30, 2010

My Top 10 of 2010

In thinking back over the past year there were a lot of good memories created. I am going to list my top ten.

10. Starting School in August

I know you think-you start school every August. This August however was very different for me. This is the first time in my entire career that all I am is a teacher. Not a teacher getting her master's degree, a teacher completing her National Boards, or a teacher about to have a baby. Just a teacher and that is all and I have loved it. I have the sweetest group of kids and a fabulous intern.

9. Family Trip to Destin

This was the first beach trip for Jaxton. It was different being at the beach with a baby, but we had a great time and lots of special family moments to cherish. We also were very lucky to avoid the oil spill.

8. Ashlynn's 5th Birthday

First let me say I cannot believe my baby girl is 5! Time has flown by so fast. She went from being a baby to a little girl in what seems like a blink. Ashlynn did turn 5 in style though. She had an amazing princess party complete with make up, dress up, crafts and royal princess games. We hired a party planner that did absolutely everything, which was perfect for us because all we had to do was show up and enjoy.

7. 9 year anniversary trip to Little Rock

Marshal and I have been to Little Rock thousands of times before. Living in Russellville for so long Little Rock was just where you went. However, since moving to NWA we rarely make it to Little Rock these days. On June 16th the Governor held a reception for all teachers that achieved National Board Certification. Since that happen to be Marshal and my anniversary we decided to just turn our trip to Little Rock into an anniversary get away. We had so much fun. We stayed at the Captial Hotel and enjoyed an evening in the River Market.

6. Losing 26 pounds

I know that is a little mis-leading since I did have a baby in November of 2009. However, in 2010 I did work very hard and lost 26 pounds. You know those cute pregnant people with the little basket ball bellies? Well that was so not me. I gained 42 pounds with Jaxton and 50 pounds with Ashlynn. After Ashlynn I held onto ten of those pounds and never lost them. When I had Jaxton I was determined to lose my baby weight. I am so proud to say I have done that plus an additional six pounds. I have one of my bestest friends and Personal Trainers to thank for all of it. She kicked my butt and I love her very much for it! Now if I can just get back on track and do my Pilate's I am told this baby gut will tighten up. We will see. Maybe not the best picture but maybe you can tell I am back to my pre-pregnancy body (or you can just take my word for it- Ha).

5. Jaxton's Baptism

This was a very special day for so many reasons. First, I am so thankful for the blessing of his life, it is so important to me to be able to promise to raise him in a Christan home and to let him know that he is a child of God. I was also so excited to have my parents, Marshal's parents, my aunt, and my grandparents here to help us celebrate. It meant so much to us to be able to surround Jaxton in love. There was another reason this day was so special to me. A reason that I haven't shared with very many people. When Marshal and I were standing in front of the church and saying the vows, a young couple was sitting right in my line of vision. This couple had recently lost a baby to miscarriage. She was sitting there with tears streaming down her face. I couldn't help but just ache for her. I hated that I was standing up there with my beautiful baby boy and she was sitting in a pew with empty arms. I knew exactly how she felt. I knew the pain behind those tears. You may wonder why I am telling you this. You may think this is an odd thing to have made my day so special. I could literally see God holding her hand in that moment. She was hurting and she felt so alone, but I could see God right there with her. It reminded me that even though I didn't feel it at the time, God never left my side. He held my hand through all of the pain and tears and he never left me. This realization made Jaxton's baptism so incredibly special for me. I have prayed for that couple many times since that day. I barely know them. In fact I can't even tell you their names. I can tell you that they are expecting a baby anyday now and I can't wait to see them in front of the church baptising their own special child.

4. Jaxton's First Birthday

Knowing that Jaxton is my last child, I have just tried my best to soak up every minute with him. He turned one in November and I just can't believe it. While I miss the baby days with him he is starting to show his own little personality which is so fun too! For his first birthday we invited several friends and family members to help us celebrate. For the party favors everyone received some money with instructions to perform a random act of kindness. It has been so cool hearing about all the different ways people used the money and how it has helped. I know it is a birthday I will never forget and I hope someday Jaxton will enjoy reading about it. 3. Ashlynn Starting Kindergarten

This has been so much fun. I have absolutely loved getting to see Ashlynn during the day. I get hugs and kisses throughout my day and it has been so wonderful. I have also learned so much about her. Getting to see her in her social setting and interacting with her peers has taught me so much about my little princess. I had no idea how much like her momma she was until this year. She is so independent and has such a mind of her own.

2. Maternity Leave

I loved my Maternity leave. I took a little over three months off. I didn't feel like I got to enjoy the first month because the holidays were so busy, but come January I loved every minute of it. I got to spend a lot of time with Ashlynn. We had a couple of Mommy/daughter days while Jaxton hung out with Nonnie. I also got some alone time with Jaxton while Ashlynn went to mother's day out. It was just a sweet time I will always cherish.

And the number one event of 2010.....

1. Turning 30!

I dreaded this sooooo much. I was not looking forward to leaving my 20's behind. However, turning 30 has been wonderful. Marshal planned a fabulous trip to KC to celebrate my 30th birthday. I had so much fun! Ethan and Sarah went with us and helped make the trip very special. However, the birthday celebration is not really what has made turning 30 my number one event. It is all of the things that have happened since the celebration. I am very proud of all the things I have accomplished in my 30 years of life. Since turning 30 I have deepened my relationship with Marshal and have been reminded that he is not only the love of my life, but my best friend. I have also become incredibly open and honest about my feelings with people. That may not be a good thing, but for whatever reason I feel more compelled to just tell people exactly what I am thinking. I have reconnected with a great friend. I care more about myself and less about what other people think of me. I feel old enough to know what I want and determined enough to get it. I feel great and I can't wait to see what the next 30 years of my life bring!

So bring on 2011!!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Christmas Traditions

I have told you before that I don't have a very big family. Marshal and I are both only children. My cousins (while I have a ton of them) are all ,13 years up to 29 years, older then me. Therefore, this time of year always brings about a little sadness for me. My children have no aunts and uncles to spoil them or cousins to play with. It is just me, Marshal, the kiddos and my parents. I am a lucky girl to have parents that are so active in my children's lives. I wouldn't trade it for anything. However, the older I get the more I long for a house full of relatives for the holidays.

I can remember as a little girl gathering with my mom's six brothers and sister and all of their children. It was magical. My grandparents were there and since I was the baby of everything I was surrounded by attention and love. I wish I had that to offer to my children.

I told my mom she could have a couple of more children. She didn't really think that was a good idea. So I don't think the big family filled home thing is going to happen. I don't have control of the size of my family, but I can control the way we celebrate the season of Christmas. I hope by establishing some Christmas traditions my children will be able to cherish their childhood memories as much as I did.

Watson Family Traditions:
  1. We decorate our Christmas tree only with ornaments that have special meaning. We get a new ornament each year that sums up what has happened in our lives that year. Ex: new baby, new home, special trips, etc. Our tree may not be a Martha Stewart tree but it is decorated with love and special memories.

  2. We go to Branson each year for one weekend in December to see the Christmas lights. Ashlynn has grown to absolutely love this and talks about it all year.

  3. We go to Christmas Eve candlelight service. This is my favorite worship service of the year. When the sanctuary is filled with hundreds of people holding candles-it is nothing short of breath taking.

  4. We hang stockings for everyone. Including our pets. Stockings are my favorite Christmas decoration ever. I love opening the stockings on Christmas morning and seeing all of the neat little goodies stuffed inside.

  5. We adopt an angel off the angel tree that is the same age as our children. This is something special I use to do with my dad. He would help me pick a child that was the same age as me and take me shopping for that little girl. I love that this year Ashlynn was old enough to kind of understand what it meant to buy for someone else.

  6. We decorate with nativity scenes. I love looking at them. I love being reminded why we are celebrating.

  7. We get family pictures taken around this time every year. I know a lot of people just get pictures of the kids. It is so important to me to have a family picture taken. I want my children to be able to look back on the memories of how we all grew and changed. Marshal lost his dad at an early age. I wish they had more family pictures to look back on.

  8. We always wake up at home on Christmas morning. This is one of the advantages to the small family thing. I don't have to work my Christmas plans around anyone else. Once Ashlynn was born I have been adamant that she be able to wake up in her own house on Christmas morning. Santa leaves the gifts out for her ( and now Jaxton too) and it is such a special time for us.

I know you all have your own things that help you celebrate the season. I hope you enjoyed reading some of the things that are important to me. Have a very Merry Christmas!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Wish List

With Christmas getting closer and closer I can't help but think of all the things I want this year. I have been a very good girl I am sure...

My Wish List

  • I wish I could learn to sew
  • I wish I was a better speller
  • I wish cake wasn't fattening
  • I wish my husband was more romantic
  • I wish I could be Carrie on Sex and the City for just one day so I could play with all of her shoes
  • I wish I had more friends that I could count on
  • I wish Marshal's dream job would never require me to move
  • I wish my flabby belly would magically disappear
  • I wish I had room to adopt 500 animals
  • I wish I was more flexible
  • I wish college football lasted year around
  • I wish I had cash with me more often
  • I wish winter was only a month long
  • I wish I was more technologically savvy
  • I wish people would not smoke in public
  • I wish I was not a picky eater
  • I wish that I was really good at something- don't care what just one thing I could do really well
  • I wish I didn't always feel the need to tell people what I am thinking
  • I wish I could take good pictures
  • I wish someone would tell me what to cook for dinner each night

My wish list could keep going but I am sure this is enough for Santa to work on for now.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Parenting Advice

A couple of days after I went back to work from my maternity leave, a coworker said to me "Parenting is the hardest thing you will ever do". "No one ever tells you that it is so hard that sometimes you feel like you just might not survive it".

I have played those words over in my mind so many times I cannot even tell you. I find such great comfort in them because it lets me know that I am normal. I feel so blessed that 95% of the time my kids are great. They are sweet, well mannered, and I can just squeeze them up and love them. But then there is the other 5%.

Now Jaxton isn't really old enough to be able to help it. His "wear me out" moments (to this point) have just been about him being sick and me wanting to be able to make it all better. Ashlynn on the other hand.....that child's 5% makes me truly question if I will survive this.

We had a weekend full of those "I'm not going to survive this" moments this past weekend. It was like someone had stolen my precious little angel and replaced her with a complete and total fire breathing dragon. When she gets going there is no stopping her. She is so strong and determined it ridiculous.

On Sunday afternoon Ashlynn turned back into her sweet normal happy smiling self. Thank goodness! My problem is I feel like I have no control when she gets out of control. I started seeking some parenting advice from friends. I have got to find some way to be able to handle and stop these fits before another happens.

Parenting advice seems simple enough, right? Well not so much. you see I took 9 hours of child development in college. I get multiple hours of parenting staff development each year. I've read books professionally about effective discipline. I am a kindergarten teacher for goodness sake. Parents ask me for advice all the time. Discipline is part of my job. Not saying all this to sound like a know it all, just saying I have tried every trick in the book.

I did however get exactly what I was looking for. That magic wand that I get to wave next time the 5% decides to rear it's ugly head. The funny part about it, the friend that gave it to me doesn't even know she did it. In fact it didn't come in the form of advice at all.

On Monday I got a Thanksgiving card from a sweet sweet friend. Inside the card she told me all the reasons she was thankful for me. Part of what she wrote said " Your sweet silly smile always brightens my day. Thank you so much for being such a strong, determined, kind, smart, goal drive inspiration to those around you. " I read this statement a thousand times. At first I just was so flattered that she said such sweet things to me and then I realized that is Ashlynn. She is strong, she is determined, she is passionate, smart, and once she gets a goal in her mind she works like crazy to complete it.

These are all qualities I was getting complemented on, but yet those same qualities are pushing me to the edge when it comes to my child. I don't think my qualities are always a good thing. They have gotten me into my fair share of trouble. However, I am very proud of who I am and I am very proud of the daughter I am raising. Instead of trying to stop those behaviors in Ashlynn I need to be teaching her how to effectively use them.

Now finding the patience while doing that, well that's a whole other story. Wish me luck...

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Alone Time

I am in complete and total heaven right now. I ,being the wonderful mother that I am, took Jaxton to MDO this morning and Marshal wanted to take Ashlynn to work with him. This left me with sweet and precious alone time. I cannot even tell you how wonderful this is.

Alone time is one of those things that no one ever tells you about before you have kids. No one tells you that once you have kids alone time is a rare gift. In fact before I had kids, I actually hated to be alone. The summer Marshal and I got married I couldn't wait for him to get home from work. I was like a baby puppy. The second I heard his car pull up in the drive way I would run to the door, leap in his arms, and lick his face. Ok maybe I didn't go so far as to actually lick his face, but you get the point. I was just so excited to have him home so I wasn't alone anymore. It is a wonder he didn't divorce me within the first month. I can only imagine how much I must have gotten on his nerves.

I wish someone would have told me then to cherish that alone time. Although I probably wouldn't have listened.

Now, I have a job where there is absolutely no alone time all day and after that I have a family with me constantly. With Ashlynn in school I don't even have alone time in the car anymore. So as you can imagine I dream about days like today. A few short hours of nothing but me time. Don't get me wrong , I love love love my family. I love being a mom and I love my wonderful husband, but today I am loving being totally and completely alone.

Here is a list of some of the things I am enjoying about my alone time:

  • I ran errands this morning and didn't have to take 10 minutes to unload my kids and I didn't have to hold any ones hand.
  • I got to have an uninterrupted phone conversation.
  • I got to use the bathroom without anyone watching me. (sorry single girls, but it is true you never really get to go to the bathroom alone again once you have kids)
  • I wrote an entire blog post without having to stop seven times to get Barbie shoes out of Jaxton's mouth.
  • I got to run on the treadmill on my time schedule, not having to wait for nap or bedtime.
  • I sat on the couch and actually did nothing but watch t.v. of my choice without feeling like I had to be folding laundry or doing dishes.
  • I got to hear complete silence.

I am sure I could go on and on about the things I am enjoying about my day, but it won't last forever. Also, as good as I am at the bumble bee pick up thing 15 minutes before Marshal gets home, I really do have a lot to accomplish before the holiday travel starts.

I must say I am so thankful for my family. Without them today would just be another day and not the fabulous adventure that it has become.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Jaxton's 1st Birthday

Jaxton is One! I can't believe it. We had so much fun celebrating. His actual birthday was Friday and we had both sets of grandparents over. It was pretty low key. I made brisket and we just hung out and loved on our little one year old. Ashlynn had so much fun helping Jaxton open the birthday presents his grandparents just couldn't resit buying him. I am pretty sure she also enjoyed playing with his new toys more then he did. This is what Jaxton thought of opening presents.

On Saturday we had some friends over for a birthday brunch. I cannot thank those of you that came enough. It absolutely meant the world to me to have you be apart of Jaxton's birthday party. We all felt very loved and I will never be able to express my thanks to you for helping make it so special.

Banner I made for the party.

We had Jaxton's picture made each month. I framed each one of them and used them to decorate the food table. The #1 I made. And of course the yummy Rick's cupcakes.

Never to early to start them on Rick's.
Just like his momma-He loved it! Instead of traditional gifts we had everyone bring donation items for the NWA Children's shelter. Jaxton enjoyed checking out all the great donations. I had to include a picture of this toy. This was the toy that all the kids wanted to play with. Unfortunately the birthday boy did not like sharing and kept pushing the sweet little girls off of it. We must work on his manners before he starts dating...
And last but certainly not least, I want to give a huge Thank you to one of my besties!!! Not only is she the best adopted Aunt a child could ask for, but she is the sweetest and most caring friend a girl could ever have. Thank you Melissa for coming all the way from Texas and for staying and helping me clean up. You are the absolute best and I love you!!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

It has been one of those days, weeks, ok months

So I guess you have noticed I have not blogged in almost a month. What a loser...

I don't know what has been going on. I keep wanting to write a blog post and I will sit down to do it and I just stare at the screen with nothing fun or exciting to share. Or I write a blog post when I am feeling totally emotional about something and I delete because it ends up being some ridiculous "spill your guts" crap that I know I will regret saying as soon as I hit the post button. Please tell me you have these moments?

I will be real honest and say they seem to be happening more often then they use to. I had no idea how much my birth control pills leveled out my hormones. I have seen a huge difference in how emotional I really am without them. Scary, I know. I feel like a teenage girl all over again. I start crying for no reason, ten minutes later I am mad as hell, and then next thing you know I am face first in a bowl of peanut butter and chocolate chips. Is this normal? Or should I be seeking professional help?

Ok to continue on with my randomness. I do have to tell you all something. This is going to get pretty personal, but I feel like it is easier to explain if I just throw it all out there. My lack of blogging is not all necessarily because I have nothing to say. A lot of it is a lack of time. I have been spending most of my "free" (and I use that world very carefully because what does that even mean when you are a mother) time exercising. I am very very proud to say I am officially back to my pre-pregnancy weight!!! WHoo Hoo!!! I am so proud. Ok here comes the personal part. The thing no girl really wants to share, but I think it will be too confusing without it. I weighed 120 before I got pregnant with Jaxton. I currently weigh 119. Now , my goal is not 120. My actual goal is 115. So I still have a little ways to go. I know four pounds doesn't seem like a lot, but anyone who has ever been around me knows that I LOVE food. I mean it is absolutely one of my favorite things on earth. Everything in my life revolves around food. Not the healthy kind, the good ,yummy, as fattening as can be, food. So four pounds seems next to impossible for me.

We will see. I do have an extremely awesome personal trainer who is happy to kick my butt anytime I will let her. In fact I think she really enjoys seeing how much she can torture me. Any ways I will keep you all updated.

P.S. if you made it to the end of all this randomness you deserve a cake in a cup from Rick's. So go treat yourself, but take me with you!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Pumpkin Patch Trips

We have been pumpkin patch crazy around the Watson household. Sunday we went to the Right Choices Pumpkin Patch in Missouri and Tuesday Ashlynn had a field trip to the McGarrah Pumpkin patch in Pea Ridge. We had a great time at both. It was funny because Sunday we were all complaining about how hot is was and Tuesday we were all complaining about how cold it was. Arkansas weather for you-never know what to expect.

Any way here are a few picks from our Fun at the Pumpkin Patches! ( Please note I am very excited to not be pregnant in this years pumpkin patch photo's).Cuties in the corn mazeAshlynn getting excited about riding the cow train. Sarah and Evan riding in the cow train. How cute Sarah even got to ride in the Sarah cow! Ashlynn in the cow train. Ashlynn thinking her pumpkin is way to heavy. Jaxton playing with all the pumpkins we brought home. He was sad he didn't get to go...maybe next year. Ashlynn's ClassShowing off their pumpkin finds.

Daddy's baby girl.

Monday, October 11, 2010

So what if I am bragging

I have to say, I really do think I have the best job in the world. As much as I love my own personal children, I love that I have a job. Not just any job, but a job that I love.

I am not going to pretend that I don’t have my moments. On any given day, you might hear me say “I am going to apply to be a Walmart greeter because I can’t do this anymore”. And yes I have been known to gripe and complain about my kid’s behavior, and don’t even get me started on their parents.

But all that aside… I go home every night knowing that I love my job. I love my job because I can see I am making a difference. I love my job because I get to use my heart. I love my job because I get a thousand hugs (and sometimes a wet slobbery kiss on the cheek) a day. I love my job because I get to see children’s eyes light up when they feel the excitement of accomplishment.

I think though as much as I love all of that my absolute favorite thing about my job is that every day is a surprise. You never know what is going to happen. It doesn’t matter what you have planned or what kind of mood you are in. Every day something happens or something is said that just takes you by surprise.

For example…I came to school on Friday morning. Honestly, I was in a pretty bad mood. I wasn’t feeling good and Marshal had kind of made me mad, bottom line I just didn’t want to be anywhere except my bed. Well I walked in and get my morning started and the bell rings; good mood or not here come the children. I was standing in my door way visiting with my neighbor teacher when one of my little boys came running in and was just so excited to talk to me. When I turned around to see what he needed he grabbed my hand and pulled me across the room to my desk. He told me to sit down in my chair. As soon as I did he started sing to me. I really don’t know what he was singing and I haven’t a clue why he was singing to me, but he was going to town singing his little heart out. It was all I could do to not burst into laughter (it’s not every day that I get serenaded at 7:30 a.m., ok so maybe I have never been serenaded….). It was so cute and so sweet. I quickly forgot how bad I was feeling and ended up having a great Friday.

Then today, I was completely worn out by this little boy. I had just gotten on to him and turned around and he was doing the very same behavior he had just gotten in trouble for. Geez, why can’t these five year olds just act sweet and perfect all day long? HA! Any way I was giving him and earful when another little boy walks over and says “Mrs. Watson, I really like it when you get mad because you are just so pretty”!!! Ha, Ha! I don’t know about all of that, but seriously who wouldn’t smile after that comment.

I will stop bragging now, but I truly do have the best job in the world and I absolutely LOVE it! I am so thankful to have the opportunity to be a part of these children’s lives every day.

Monday, September 27, 2010

30th Birthday

To say I had a fabulous birthday weekend would be a complete understatement! Marshal planned a trip to Kansas City and didn’t tell me any of the details about it. It was perfect and wonderful and I could not have asked for a better birthday.

Poor Marshal really has his work cut out for him when planning surprises for me. I am a huge planner and really it just drives me crazy to not have control. So I had been giving him a pretty hard time right up until we got to KC. I wanted to know everything, but he didn’t tell me a thing.
When we arrived late Friday night he took me to Harrah’s. As Marshal likes to tell everyone, I love slot machines. I mean I have only been to a casino five times in my entire life, but I do really do like slot machines. After we lost all of our money, which didn’t take long, he drove us to the hotel in Overland Park. We stayed at the Aloft and it was very nice.

Saturday morning we went down to the Plaza district and went shopping. May I just stop right here and say, they have the biggest Forever 21 I have ever seen, made me pretty happy.

During lunch Marshal told me that someone would be calling any minute to tell us they had arrived in Kansas City to help celebrate my birthday. I had no idea that Ethan and Sarah would be joining us. Having them there really made the trip special and I cannot thank them enough for coming!
After shopping I got to go have dessert at The Cheesecake Factory. Sad to say this was my first ever trip to a Cheesecake factory. Those of you that have been before know that it was an extra yummy surprise.
For dinner Marshal made reservations at Huston’s Steak House. We went to the Huston’s in New Orleans all the time when we lived there. They have very fabulous prime rib. Another thing Marshal likes to tell everyone….”Andrea can put away more meat than anyone I have ever seen”. So as you can imagine I was extremely happy with his choice.

After dinner we went to the P&L, which is a huge warehouse with several different bars and clubs inside it. It was really neat. Our first stop was Howl at the Moon, a dueling piano bar. To our surprise Neil Diamond was there and they invited him up on stage to sing. Who would have thought we would be hanging out with Neil Diamond? After that we went to a dance club and had a blast dancing.
Considering I didn’t get back to my hotel room until 4 a.m. I am going to say I had a wonderful fun filled night! This weekend was just what I needed to help welcome me to my 30’s!!!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

I could lie to you but I won't

What do you do when your daughter is so much like you and it is truly not funny?

I could tell you that I am a sweet, lovable, flexible, woman that always is a delight to be around.

But why lie.

The truth is-I am a spicy, strong willed, lady that likes to get my way. I have a huge heart and I love very deeply, but boy howdy when that spice begins to flare, well there is just no stopping it.

I know some of you out there are just cracking up reading this because your are thinking "she isn't even telling the half of it". precious beautiful daughter is just like me. I mean I have tried to model for her how to be sweet and loving. And believe me she is. It warms my heart to hear her pray for one of her friends, or listen to her lovingly talk to her stuffed animals. I just beam when she talks about taking care of the world's animals and recycling so we can keep our Earth happy. She takes time to make cards for her friends, just to let them know she is thinking of them. All great wonderful things she has learned from me.

Why oh why did she have to pick up the bad things too. Could she have not just stopped at the positive stuff?

Today Ashlynn was eating lunch in the cafeteria. The little boy beside her decided to start messing with her. He was saying ugly things to her, showing her his chewed up food, and just being kind of mean. Well I guess the last straw for Ashlynn was when he took her fork and threw it on the ground. Ashlynn proceeded to then push his entire tray off the table and onto the ground. Well you can see where this might cause a problem. The lunch duty teacher came over to see what was going on and Ashlynn just broke down into tears.

This is where it is hard to be a parent. I want my child to know that we don't take matters into our own hands, and just because we are hurt doesn't mean we should hurt back. And I would love to think that my sweet child would just sit nicely, raise her hand and tell the teacher. But no this is where her mommas spice kicked in. She showed him. And quite frankly I would have done the same thing (although don't tell Ashlynn this but I would have dumped the tray in his lap so he could wear the food a little while. Make him think about it so he would think twice before being mean to me again)!

Anyway, I did the right "teacher" thing to do. I made Ashlynn clean up the food on the floor and miss a few minutes of her recess. I know that won't make any of the spice go away, but maybe she will think about it before she lets it loose at school again.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Sick Days

So if you are wanting a bubbly fun post that is going to be full of happiness and make you feel warm and fuzzy inside you might want to stop reading now.

First, I have not posted in so long because I have been taking care of sick children for two weeks now. Ashlynn got some kind of yucky virus a couple of weeks ago. Ran a temp for two days and just felt bad. Then that weekend Jaxton woke up with a 103.7 and cranky as all get out. We started him on antibiotics, but he didn't seem to be getting any better. So we went back to the doctor. He had an ear infection in his right ear so they gave him a shot and a different antibiotic. Well now a week and a half later he still is not feeling any better so I guess it is going to be back to the doctor for us.

Speaking of doctors...a real funny story.... So in July I got together all of our out of pocket medical expenses to turn in to receive our medical reimbursement. I realized that I didn't have many medical bills and was concerned we weren't going to spend enough to get our full reimbursement by the end of the year. Well I wish I would have never let that thought go across my brain because since then we have had an emergency room visit, $150 worth of doctor's visits, $100 worth of prescriptions, and a minor out patent procedure.

Moral to the story-sometimes you get exactly what you are asking for and then some!

Ok, I have spread enough negativity for one day. Sometimes you just have to vent you know.

Here's a couple of pics of the kids to sugar coat my blah blah blahing.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Oh my Five Year Old

Ashlynn is (for the most part) a very well behaved child. She is polite, sweet and a total rule follower that truly wants to please.

That is until she gets overly tried. Then oh my dear mercy you better watch out. When she is tried she turns into a complete and total mess. I cannot even explain to you the fits that little girl can throw. Screaming, stomping her feet, fist clinched, tears streaming down her face-FIT.

Well as you can imagine the start of kindergarten has been pretty exhausting. Today some of that exhaustion got the best of Ashlynn and that overly tried fit throwing started. First it was a little fit over not wanting to put her shoes on. Then she didn't want to eat her dinner. Then when we get to Walmart she throws a pretty good sized fit in the parking lot because she wanted to ride in the top of the cart and make Jaxton ride in his stroller. I told her no she had two choices...walk or ride in the bottom. Well her daddy went against what I said and got another chart and let her ride in the top of it while Jaxton was in the top of the other chart. This pretty much infuriated me. Not only had I just had enough of the fits, but for him to go against what I said and give into her fit...ugg I was steaming mad at both of them.

So I take off. If Marshal wants to put up with it fine, but I wasn't going to. Within five minutes Ashlynn and Marshal catch up to me in Walmart and Ashlynn says "Momma I am so sorry what can I do to make you feel better." I reply "Ashlynn I have had enough, what I want is for you to stop acting this way and for your Daddy to start listening to me. " She says "Daddy I told you momma wanted you to tell her sorry". So Marshal tells me he is sorry. I am still not feeling real forgiving so I continue on with my shopping. Ashlynn then tells Marshal that Momma is still mad and she thinks they need to sing me a song. She ask Marshal what song she should sing me. Marshal tells her to sing me Girls Just Want to Have Fun. So she does. I am not amused.

Ashlynn turns to Marshal and says "Daddy Mommy still has and angry face-do you just not know her at all?"

I had to laugh after that. And that is why I love my five year old!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

The Restaurant Stage

This weekend Jaxton officially reached the Restaurant Stage. You know that stage where taking him in to a restaurant of any kind is a HUGE mistake. The stage where it takes you longer to pack a diaper bag for a one hour meal then it does to pack for a week long vacation. You have high hopes that something that you packed will entertain him long enough for you to eat your meal. The stage where every hostess in any restaurant cringes when they see you walk in the door.

You know the drill (or if you don't yet you will) sit down the waitress comes over and before she can ask you what you want to drink you have blurted out your entire order. As soon as she has deliver your food you lay out your credit card without even caring what the bill says. You stuff your food in your mouth as fast as you can knowing that each bite is supper yummy, even if you can't taste it because you swallowed it whole.

Once you have completed your meal you stand up to leave and give everyone around you an apologetic look. It is almost like they are cheering silently thinking thank goodness they are finally leaving. I mean not only has your baby thrown toys at them, talked extremely loudly, flicked water at them, but just look at the mess he made. Crackers, chopped up pieces of food, cereal, and smeared baby food litters the table, chairs and for heavens sake don't even think about looking at the floor.

When you finally arrive back at the car you are completely exhausted and feel like you have just survived some kind of war. You swear you are not going out to eat for the next ten years and you say a silent prayer that no one in that restaurant recognized you.

Then when next weekend rolls around you think surely it wasn't that bad.....where do you want to go eat?

Thursday, August 19, 2010

First Day of School

Today Ashlynn started kindergarten and Jaxton started Mother's Day Out. I tell you I was an emotional wreck all day. On one hand I loved being able to sneak kisses from my sweet baby girl all day and on the other hand I was so beside myself worried about my baby boy being with a bunch of strangers.

Ashlynn and Jaxton both had great days!

Ashlynn loved kindergarten. her favorite part of the day was playing at recess with her friend from MDO Ryann. She also enjoyed going to music and playing with pattern blocks. She said she was disappointed that she didn't make anything in art because there were too many rules-ha.

Jaxton did fine too. I have been very lucky to have my mom keep him while I work. She will still be keeping him three days a week and he will be going to MDO two days a week. This is very new for me. Ashlynn stayed a home with her full time until she was 2 1/2- so taking a 9 month old is a new experience.

He only took a 45 minute nap today (verse his normal 4 hours), but stayed happy most of the day. My biggest complaint was he was so tired and cranky by the time I got him home I didn't get to have any fun and snuggle time with him. Hopefully he will adjust to their schedule and all will be good. If not my mom assures me we will do something different and she will find someone to keep him at her church for those two days (hint hint mom) . No really I think it is just going to take some getting used to on all of our parts. Ashlynn loved MDO and I am sure Jaxton will as well.

Above all we all made it through it!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Last Day of Summer

Today is my last day of summer vacation and tomorrow is back to the "real" world. I am going to miss my lazy days of being home and am already counting the days to Thanksgiving break. Don't get me wrong I love love love my job and I have already admitted that I am not cut out to be a stay at home mom, but the time home with my family is very precious to me.

I thought I would share a few pictures to show you how we spent our last day.
We spent all morning in our pajamas Made chocolate gravy for breakfastwent to Rick's Bakery for lunch

and ended the afternoon with a fabulous nap!

A day of doing a whole lot of nothing....It doesn't get much better than that!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

I did not sign up for this

When I found out I was going to be a mommy for the first time I was so excited. I was excited about the tiny toes and the cut little clothes. I couldn't wait to snuggle the perfect little baby. I dreamed of watching her grow and being her best friend.

Never did it ever cross my mind that becoming a mommy was going to be more difficult than anything my wildest imagination could dream up.

Last night Marshal, GeGe, and I ended up in the emergency room with Ashlynn. She was playing underneath the dinning room table with plans to jump out and surprise her GeGe and Daddy. When she went to jump out she surprised them alright...yes you guessed it, the top of her little head hit right into the bottom corner of the table.

The very second I heard the sound my heart sank. I knew right then that my baby girl was badly hurt. Marshal scooped her up and she began screaming. When she started crying Jaxton started crying and I started crying. Thank goodness Marshal was there and thank goodness he is able to not only deal with blood (which anyone that knows me at all knows that I can barely say the word without passing out much less have to see it and clean it up) but he was able to stay calm.

He cleaned up the wound and we waited for a little while then he told us the cut just wasn't going to close up on it's own and we needed to go the emergency room.

This is where that "being a mommy is the most difficult thing" comes in. When your baby is hurt, you as a mommy feel the worst pain you have ever felt in your life. Knowing that you can't kiss it and make it feel better. Knowing that you have to sit back, smile like everything is fine, and be strong. No one ever told me that this would be so hard.

Ashlynn is going to be fine. It really turned out to be a minor cut. She got a couple of staples and will need a week of healing but is going to be just fine.

I am the one with the long term effects.

I am the one that was reminded how fiercely I love that child. I am the one that dropped down on my knees and thanked God for being her protector. I am the one that got a small glimpse of how God must feel when we, his children, hurt. It made me realize that although God probably wants nothing more than to take our pain away, the pain in our lives teaches us so much.

While this was Ashlynn's first, I know it will not be her last cut or bruise. I hope though that she has learned to be a little more cautious and listen a little closer.

I hope that I too have learned that same lesson.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Firefly Fling

Saturday was a fabulous day! Melissa came to visit and spoiled everyone by bringing surprises. We had such a good time visiting and I am so excited we got to spend some time with her and can't wait for her to come back. After Melissa left (sad) we took Ashlynn and Jaxton to the Firefly Fling at the Botanical Gardens. We had a great time and the gardens are absolutely beautiful!

Ashlynn and I enjoyed seeing the Fairy Houses- all though we couldn't find any fairies. Daddy and Jaxton spent the evening strolling around looking at all the people.

Ashlynn made a beautiful fairy wand,
got a pink fairy painted on her cheek, and made a fairy boat.

Another wonderful family evening in NWA!